Friday, October 26, 2012

Someone like you...

If you look close enough to the
world around you,
you might see someone like you.

Someone trying to find their way.
Someone trying to find their place.
Someone trying to find their self.
Sometimes it seems like you are the only

one

in the world who's struggling,
who's frustrated,
or unsatisfied,
or barely getting by.
But that feeling's a lie.
And if you just hold on,
just find the courage to

face it all

for another day,
someone or something will find you and make it all okay.
Because we all need a little help sometimes.
Someone to help us hear the music in the world, to remind us that it won't always be this way.

That someone is out there.


And that someone will find you.

-Lucas Scott, One Tree Hill

Monday, October 22, 2012

How to make a happy day....

How does a happy day work? 
It starts by waking up next to someone you want to wake up to every day for the rest of your life. 
Pretty great start, eh?

I thought so. 

Next step--pancakes. 
With peanut butter of course. 

Third step of a happy day:
Play with the puppy who, of course, loves you unconditionally. 
And brings the ball back every time. 

Forth step of a happy day:
Long, hot shower. 

Fifth step--
Talk about what else we can do today. 

Sixth step:
Pick something to do. 

Seventh step:
Grab some lunch

Eighth step:
Enjoy the afternoon. 

Number nine:
Supper time.

Tenth step:
Relax with some tv.

Final step of a happy day:
Go to sleep next to the person you want to spend every night with for the rest of your life. 

24 hours of bliss. 

“What you have to decide... is how you want your life to be. If your forever was ending tomorrow, would this be how you'd want to have spent it? Listen, the truth is, nothing is guaranteed. You know that more than anybody. So don't be afraid. Be alive.”
― Sarah Dessen, The Truth About Forever

Oh, and steps two through ten?? Entirely irrelevant.

Sunday, September 30, 2012

wordless

I graduate college in two and half months.
I start the real world 4 months.
I don't really feel ready.
Blogging has fallen to the wayside.
I want to talk about Tiffy.
But, I want to forget the whole thing ever happened.
I want to stay at Jared's.
Skip this crap of school.
So much stuff.
Always thinking.
Some times I just want to be alone.
Alone drives me crazy.


Life is a struggle.
Push through it.

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Not dealing with things...

There are things I need to talk about.
But I can't do it yet.
Eventually.
I don't know how to deal with things like this.
I'm doing okay,
but I don't know how I'm supposed to feel about this.
It hurts.

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

Change...

Let's talk about change.
People change and grow and leave.
Friends drift apart. They come, they go.
They do things for themselves, to make themselves a better person.
They do things for others, to try and be who the other wants them to be.
In this process, we lose touch with why that person was our friend to begin with.
And all of a sudden, we don't even speak to them anymore.
And we are angry. They changed. They left us. They betrayed us.

But when we look at ourselves, we never think we change for the worse.
I don't think I have changed.
Maybe I have. Maybe I haven't.
When I am still friends with my two best friends from high school,
I can hardly think I am that different.
But the rest of my friends, they are not the same.
I don't have 'girl friends' at school.
Not that girl you go everywhere with.
I've lost that.
See above.
My friends are boys.
And I love them to death.
But it is not the same.

And then I look at those who have changed for me.
When you change for someone, it should always be for the better.
If it is not for the better, one shouldn't change.
Standing by when things are hard.
Learning to accept who I am.
Loving who I am.
Picking me up when I stumble.
It is those people who matter.
Not those who let you fall by the wayside.
Not those who change and abandon friends.
Keep those who care close by.
Don't let them get far.


Accept.
Love.
Believe.


Thursday, June 14, 2012

it's just plain hard...

Sometimes, things are just hard.
People get hurt.
People get sick.

Here I sit, tore up about how much I hate living alone.
How petty do I feel?
I feel ridiculous.
But I cannot help it.

I want people. I need people.
Being away from the people,
makes me un-me like.

When I am gone,
people get hurt.
people get sick.
people get down.

My people get hurt and down.
I can't fix them.
I can't fix hurt anyhow.
But I can fix down.


If they let me....

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

fifteen things to give up......


1. GIVE UP YOUR NEED TO ALWAYS BE RIGHT
 There are so many of us who can’t stand the idea of being wrong – wanting to always be right – even at the risk of ending great relationships or causing a great deal of stress and pain, for us and for others. It’s just not worth it. Whenever you feel the ‘urgent’ need to jump into a fight over who is right and who is wrong, ask yourself this question: “Would I rather be right, or would I rather be kind?” Wayne Dyer. What difference will that make? Is your ego really that big?

2. GIVE UP YOUR NEED FOR CONTROL
Be willing to give up your need to always control everything that happens to you and around you – situations, events, people, etc. Whether they are loved ones, coworkers, or just strangers you meet on the street – just allow them to be. Allow everything and everyone to be just as they are and you will see how much better will that make you feel.

“By letting it go it all gets done. The world is won by those who let it go. But when you try and try. The world is beyond winning.” Lao Tzu

3. GIVE UP ON BLAME
 Give up on your need to blame others for what you have or don’t have, for what you feel or don’t feel. Stop giving your powers away and start taking responsibility for your life.

4. GIVE UP YOUR SELF-DEFEATING SELF-TALK
 Oh my. How many people are hurting themselves because of their negative, polluted and repetitive self-defeating mindset? Don’t believe everything that your mind is telling you – especially if it’s negative and self-defeating. You are better than that.

“The mind is a superb instrument if used rightly. Used wrongly, however, it becomes very destructive.” Eckhart Tolle

5. GIVE UP YOUR LIMITING BELIEFS
about what you can or cannot do, about what is possible or impossible. From now on, you are no longer going to allow your limiting beliefs to keep you stuck in the wrong place. Spread your wings and fly!

“A belief is not an idea held by the mind, it is an idea that holds the mind” Elly Roselle

6. GIVE UP COMPLAINING
 Give up your constant need to complain about those many, many, maaany things – people, situations, events that make you unhappy, sad and depressed. Nobody can make you unhappy, no situation can make you sad or miserable unless you allow it to. It’s not the situation that triggers those feelings in you, but how you choose to look at it. Never underestimate the power of positive thinking.

7. GIVE UP THE LUXURY OF CRITICISM
Give up your need to criticize things, events or people that are different than you. We are all different, yet we are all the same. We all want to be happy, we all want to love and be loved and we all want to be understood. We all want something, and something is wished by us all.

8. GIVE UP YOUR NEED TO IMPRESS OTHERS
Stop trying so hard to be something that you’re not just to make others like you. It doesn’t work this way. The moment you stop trying so hard to be something that you’re not, the moment you take off all your masks, the moment you accept and embrace the real you, you will find people will be drawn to you, effortlessly.

9. GIVE UP YOUR RESISTANCE TO CHANGE
 Change is good. Change will help you move from A to B. Change will help you make improvements in your life and also the lives of those around you. Follow your bliss, embrace change – don’t resist it.
“Follow your bliss and the universe will open doors for you where there were only walls” Joseph Campbell

10. GIVE UP LABELS
 Stop labeling those things, people or events that you don’t understand as being weird or different and try opening your mind, little by little. Minds only work when open. “The highest form of ignorance is when you reject something you don’t know anything about.” Wayne Dyer

11. GIVE UP ON YOUR FEARS
Fear is just an illusion, it doesn’t exist – you created it. It’s all in your mind. Correct the inside and the outside will fall into place.
“The only thing we have to fear, is fear itself.” Franklin D. Roosevelt

12. GIVE UP YOUR EXCUSES
Send them packing and tell them they’re fired. You no longer need them. A lot of times we limit ourselves because of the many excuses we use. Instead of growing and working on improving ourselves and our lives, we get stuck, lying to ourselves, using all kind of excuses – excuses that 99.9% of the time are not even real.

13. GIVE UP THE PAST
I know, I know. It’s hard. Especially when the past looks so much better than the present and the future looks so frightening, but you have to take into consideration the fact that the present moment is all you have and all you will ever have. The past you are now longing for – the past that you are now dreaming about – was ignored by you when it was present. Stop deluding yourself. Be present in everything you do and enjoy life. After all life is a journey not a destination. Have a clear vision for the future, prepare yourself, but always be present in the now.

14. GIVE UP ATTACHMENT
This is a concept that, for most of us is so hard to grasp and I have to tell you that it was for me too, (it still is) but it’s not something impossible. You get better and better at with time and practice. The moment you detach yourself from all things, (and that doesn’t mean you give up your love for them – because love and attachment have nothing to do with one another,  attachment comes from a place of fear, while love… well, real love is pure, kind, and self less, where there is love there can’t be fear, and because of that, attachment and love cannot coexist) you become so peaceful, so tolerant, so kind, and so serene. You will get to a place where you will be able to understand all things without even trying. A state beyond words.

15. GIVE UP LIVING YOUR LIFE TO OTHER PEOPLE’S EXPECTATIONS
Way too many people are living a life that is not theirs to live. They live their lives according to what others think is best for them, they live their lives according to what their parents think is best for them, to what their friends, their enemies and their teachers, their government and the media think is best for them. They ignore their inner voice, that inner calling. They are so busy with pleasing everybody, with living up to other people’s expectations, that they lose control over their lives. They forget what makes them happy, what they want, what they need….and eventually they forget about themselves.  You have one life – this one right now – you must live it, own it, and especially don’t let other people’s opinions distract you from your path.

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Thursday, May 3, 2012

in omnia paratus

ready for anything. 

bring it on finals. 

Saturday, April 28, 2012

I want....

I wanna fly somewhere in first class. 
I wanna travel to Europe on a business trip. 
I wanna get invited to the White House. 
I wanna learn about the world. 
I wanna surprise myself. 
I wanna be important. 
I wanna be the best person I can be. 
I wanna define myself instead of having others define me. 
I wanna win and have people be happy for me. 
I wanna lose and get over it. 
I wanna not be afraid of the unknown. 
I wanna grow up to be generous and big hearted, the way that people have been with me. 
I want an interesting and surprising life. 


It’s not that I think I’m gonna get all these things. 
I just want the possibility of getting them.


-Friday Night Lights

Sunday, April 22, 2012

What lies behind us
 and what lies before us are
small matters 
compared to what lies 
within us.

Saturday, April 14, 2012

I cannot live with so many people. 
Lights. 
Dishes. 
Noise. 
Ugh. 
I'm missing my "summer life"
My summer life was spectacular. 
Soon. 
Soon we can have that again. 
Moving on from college life. 
Right into the real world.
This time next year. 
Hopefully. 

Thursday, April 5, 2012

How to win...

The easiest way to win is to change your goal
and give up. 

What does that prove?
Nothing. 
Buckle down and get it done. 


Thursday, March 22, 2012